One random day a friend asked if I knew the exact time I was born because he was going to do some kemerlu. That prompted me to check my birth certificate and discover that I was born at 7:35 AM on a Wednesday. The Wednesday part I found out two years ago for a ritual I needed to do in Bali. Prior to that confirmation, I always assumed and believed that I was born at 3 AM ...that's because my mom told the story that she started her labor around midnight and that a bunch of guys cornered the car she was riding in for a holdup attempt. Somehow they were able to escape unscathed as they rushed to the hospital. My parents were at our other house, 45 kilometers away from the capital when mom's water broke. Back then the road was pitch dark, thus the surprise ambush happened because they were on the road at an ungodly hour. They arrived at the hospital around 3 AM, and shortly thereafter I was born immediately I presumed. I have no sense of understanding with how labor works, just that it's painful. Long story short, I was born at 7:35 AM and not 3 AM as I initially thought.
Why is it significant? Because then my friend did this chart thing to try and figure out my person, how my soul is aligned with the universe based on my birth date and time. Astrology is something interesting as to how we seem to be predestined under the measure of the stars and alignment of the planets. And as my curiosity rose, I asked him to send me the link instead of waiting for his reading. I was able to comprehend the worded part, but to interpret the given numbers and charts is something that requires further study. It was a hit-and-miss kind of reading, but it rang true with what my spiritual friend has told me, that astrology is roughly 80% accurate...which was roughly how accurate my reading was. I admit a couple of things outright as was written in the stars, yet there were some inaccuracies on occasion as well.
I've gotten into this sort as a side interest as it delves into the realm of the divine and the paranormal. It's something that is not accredited by science and therefore has caught my attention as a deviant of what is perceived by cynics and realists as ridiculous and beyond earthly comprehension. I don't study the subject, but I enjoy relating to people and opening my mind into this world of celestial relativity. I find curiosity, leaning more onto the side of believing, in its ability to relay this pseudoscientific information that has a weight of truth in it...to a degree. As a disclaimer by those into astrology, unlike science that is considered by the majority as absolute, this one you take with a grain of salt. It has an open-ended conclusion, one that can be interpreted in multiple ways. Much like how a woman's mind works...it goes either way.
So...I checked into the website (https://astro.cafeastrology.com) where my friend took his reference from, and these are copy-pasted words from the site that rang true and reflects my current being as of writing. I'm not including everything, just fragments of the statements I found intriguingly accurate:
Sun in XII House I ASC
Keywords: analytical, intelligent, reserved, critical, helpful, conscientious.
There's an odd combination of the intellectual and the practical in Virgo that is sometimes mistaken for coolness. Virgo with ascendant Virgo. Double Virgo! For the most part, you are who you appear to be. Even if you are quiet, people notice you. You have a strong personal presence. Virgo traits are strong and most evident. (NOTE: As my medium friend in Bali said, "You are very Virgo!" Yes, and I love it.)
People with Virgo rising are often a little understated in their personal mannerisms and appearance, although a lot depends on the position of Mercury (the ruling planet of Virgo) in the chart. Generally, there is an intelligent and reserved aura about Virgo rising individuals that is unmistakable. These are actually somewhat shy people who need time to analyze things around them before they warm up to both situations and people. This quality can be received exactly as that, or it can be received as a rather stand-offish, cool, and even critical manner (depending on the audience). (NOTE: Yes, I don't approach people unless willingly or necessarily.)
You have a tendency to be introspective and need some space and seclusion in order to pull up your strength. (NOTE: I can't be in the same space with an overtly high energy for too long because I get drained and will take time to recuperate.)
Still, the tendency to live beyond your means is a real threat that you might struggle with much of your life. (NOTE: OMG! The struggle is real!)
Although somewhat undemonstrative, you are generally loyal and responsible people to those you care about.
You are naturally trustworthy, and you don't have much patience for those who don't show respect for others, who take foolish risks, and who lead disorganized lives.
You are, above all things, an individualist. You naturally rebel against that which is established.
You possess a huge distaste for routine. You work best when you have some say as to when and how you get things done.
You don't have to try to stand out as unique--you are original, creative, and progressive without trying. You are far from pretentious.
You possess an unmistakable enthusiasm about life, and generally, your life is interesting because you invite unusual or adventurous experiences into your life.
You are generally appreciated by others because you are open-minded, fair, and not judgmental. Nothing really seems to faze you! You take things in stride and are rarely shocked or taken aback by human behavior.
It is so completely natural for you to accept that there is more to the world than what is before your eyes, that you tend to presume everyone must be spiritually-inclined. Of course, you come to realize that this is not the case at some early point in your life.
Your attraction to spirituality and metaphysical subjects is usually marked. (NOTE: As I mentioned earlier, this is confirmed.)
You are humanitarian and may have a special connection with animals. (NOTE: If I had my way, I'd live on a farm with dozens of animals...although I envision this happening soon.)
Truth is, they can have plenty of mood swings and some dark emotions now and again. (NOTE: Sometimes I wonder if it's just my hormones or it just the way my spirit works.)
They quickly garner reputations of being mountains of strength, and they easily hide their sensitivity behind a sarcastic manner.
She likes family life, peace and quiet -- she likes to stay at home, surrounded by loved ones, in agreeable circumstances. Strongly influenced by the mother. (NOTE: Yes. Yes. Yes.)
Even if you are shy, once you're friends, you love to talk about pretty much anything under the sun, and you enjoy sharing stories from your past! For the most part, you are focused on day-to-day activities in your communications rather than on grander philosophies.
You are naturally curious and interested, and others find you very easy to talk to. You are accommodating and curious, but you are not as well equipped to handle heavy emotional demands. (NOTE: Emotion is not my strength.)
You thrive on change and variety.
You listen! Yes, you do talk and occasionally interrupt in your excitement, but you are a curious person who does want to hear what others have to say, and that is a real pleasure. (NOTE: I don't have to be in the conversation at times, I just love to listen to stories of people. I tend to space out after a while though.)
She has good judgment, a good memory. She is intelligent, imaginative, vivacious, and develops, adapts, and grows throughout life. This adds a youthful, lively quality to the personality.
Very sensual, you sometimes replace love with food or shopping! (NOTE: My love is food is the proper statement for this one.)
You possess a distinct lazy streak. You are capable of working hard, but you truly appreciate luxuriating and enjoying as many pleasures as possible, and self-discipline simply isn't always at your disposal! (NOTE: I take my time in doing what I do. In fact, I might not finish doing it or not do it at all!)
While she is usually sweet and gracious, she can also be inconstant and capricious at times, possessing a changeable nature. A varied love life, ups and downs, unusual ideas.
You seek emotional excitement in your life. Although you often project a brave and tough image, your skin isn't as thick as you'd have others believe. You tend to put up defenses due to your emotionally vulnerable and excitable disposition. Unrest is characteristic, as you are bored by routine and become easily frustrated when life is "too easy". There's a buzz of energy surrounding you, and you tend to meet with many conflicts in your life. With the opposition, the conflict tends to be lived through relationships. The passions are quite raw, especially in youth. (NOTE: When the learning curve flattens I'm bored and I'm out.)
Although you can be a decidedly amiable and interesting person, others always seem to sense your boundaries. Something is bound to get you worked up, and it's not always clear what that something will be. Your bluntness can be both appreciated and considered offensive, depending on your audience!
Naturally perceptive, without even trying she tunes into the feelings of others, and the mood of her surroundings. There is a distinct emotional need to escape into the world of imagination, and to withdraw from others at times when she needs to re-center herself, largely because she tends to "take in" a lot of mixed energies from her surroundings. Strong and sudden "feelings" and hunches can overcome her. More often than not, her intuition is correct, although her imagination is also powerful and she can read too much into a situation as a result. Some laziness is associated with this position. This stems from a natural timidity and sensitivity that is apparent from youth. She may have been labeled "shy" in youth, and family members or friends may have jumped in to "save" her from situations that required boldness or aggressiveness. Thus, passivity was accepted and, as adults, she may be less experienced than most when it comes to reaching out or going after what she wants. (NOTE: It wasn't until recently when I accepted the reality that I am an empath whether I put my walls up or not. As a result of this, I get to read people's emotions and absorb the emotions they emit. Hence, the need to be a recluse at times just to rebalance myself.)
Very perceptive and given to psychoanalyzing people. A strategist. Powerful emotions and intense feelings.
Emotions are big, dark, and mysterious, but she embraces these things, instinctively understanding and accepting the many sides and complications of her feelings.
She may have difficulty expressing herself, especially when young. She does not talk much, she does not speak just for the sake of it, but when in the mood, can talk a lot in a big burst of conversation. She may prefer to work in remote and quiet places. She is discrete and philosophical.
You make an excellent confidante--you are very discreet and secrets go into the vault. You might make matters too complex by overanalyzing motives or hunches, and then have problems acting on your intuition as a result. You are very attracted to symbols, sentiment, imagery, and paradoxes. You prefer not to focus on facts and learn best when ideas are presented visually, emotionally, or imaginatively. (NOTE: Irony is the game.)
She looks on the bright side of life. She is gay, agreeable, optimistic, sociable. She enjoys speaking and writing, and she does both with charm and artistry. Her intellectual pleasures are very much influenced by her feelings. She is amorous and sensual. She likes beauty, the Arts, traveling, frequent changes of scenery. Aims always for diplomacy. Very charming.
Venus in Cancer people show their love by caring for you. They pay more attention to your feelings than your words, and observe you rather carefully. They want a safe, solid relationship. They can be a little moody in love, and some go so far as giving silent treatments and engaging in pouting routines to get attention from their mate. They are turned off by anything too impersonal, and too much rationalizing leaves them cold. They are not afraid of emotional confrontations (even if they have a Gemini Sun and appear flighty in other areas of life). Still, these lovers are always worried they'll be left high and dry. If you've hurt them, they'll have a hard time forgetting. Every so often, they'll retreat into themselves (not unlike a Crab), and it can be difficult to pull them out. This is when they use their extraordinary "nursing" abilities on themselves, instead of you...and you simply don't want that! (NOTE: Silent treatment is my go-to as it's the perfect opportunity to retreat and recuperate.)
Her best years may be in the parental home and also the last years of life. That said, the rest are not unhappy, but contain certain hurdles. Love can help in the professional life; she has a gift for seduction. She likes to entertain; she likes the comfort and attractions of home life. (NOTE: It's true, my next ideal setup is to be back at my parents' home and continue to grow my roots there. My heart is both settled and erratic whenever I'm back home and I can feel their presence. I can be anywhere in the world, but at the end of the day I look forward to living the life I envision, back home to where I grew up in.)
Others tend to respect you for your charming manner, and you have many admirers, although some of these are admirers from afar, as there is an aura about you that is charming yet strangely (and intriguingly) distant. (NOTE: Walls, they're always partially up, not as high for certain people though.)
You are highly creative and generally are driven to express that creativity. Your passion for romance is often channeled into your creative output. For example, challenges in relationships may be a large part of the drive behind your poetry, music, or other art. (NOTE: I need a creative outlet else, I'd implode.)
She is naturally attracted to relationships that transform her, that are growing and evolving, and that are intense. She can use her strong intuition and understanding of others for good or for bad, and this depends largely on other aspects in the chart.
Mars in Aries natives are often a step ahead of the rest of us. A life that is too predictable makes them antsy. Mars in Aries people enjoy starting fresh--new ideas, pioneering action, and fresh projects make them happiest. They generally enjoy challenges. Relationships with these natives can be exciting, but keeping up with them can be difficult. They are given to impulsive action, and they are not known for sticking things through. Although their physical energy is great, they can lose their initial enthusiasm quickly. Mars in Aries natives are easily irritated by indirectness from others. They expect others to say things straight--no beating around the bush. They easily become impatient with convoluted plans, or with people they consider to be slow to action. Most people with this position of Mars have a childlike quality to them. Sometimes they're downright rude and impatient, but with Mars in Aries natives, you generally know what they're after.
At your worst, you can be disorganized in your approach to life, easily procrastinating and lacking follow-through when you do begin a task. Some of the most important lessons you need to learn in life are self-control, self-assertion, and trust in yourself. At your best, you are a creative person with a powerful imagination and great stores of compassion.
Her studies may be restricted. She is serious, discrete. She takes on mental tasks that require time and concentration. She may travel little even though she likes it. She may have few friends, who are, however, very close. (NOTE: The travel little part can be a direct result of my financial incapability because of a statement earlier, the tendency-to-live-beyond-your-means part. Otherwise, I'd be off to one corner of the world several times a year.)
She can have trouble carrying through her plans, schemes to the end. Tastes are changeable. She may lack forethought, attention span. She throws herself into things instead of thinking and then reacting to them. (NOTE: The idea is to make plans and abandon it when something interesting comes up.)
The absolute example of the "serious" type. Everything is calculated, the slightest risk analyzed, patience is one of her main qualities. She knows little about chance. (NOTE: Taking a chance for me means I've calculated the risks involved.)
Profession requiring lots of change and movement. If this isn't the case, then lots of job changes. She likes to move, travel, write. (NOTE: Uh-huh, I can't stay in a company longer than what all my employers expected me to stay. Whenever I apply for a job, I have a resignation letter already prepared. I never saw myself climbing up the corporate ladder. If I wanted to be a CEO, it meant starting my own company, not working for a huge corporation and making my way through promotions...because it meant staying in a company for more than two years! So yeah, I had the tendency to transfer from one job to another until I decided that being an employee isn't for me, so I quit my last job with immediate notice and hadn't looked back since.)
Sincere and life-long friendships. The family comes first, however.
In retrospect, why does Astrology work for me? If science refuses to relate to the divine, then I identify this connection to confirmation bias under human psychology. Psychology, a recognized branch of science. As each person searches to confirm his or her own narrative, arbitrary as this may seem, whether as a placebo or an actual connection to a bigger way of being, is something that grabs my attention under the category of gut-feel. The universe is vast, and our spec of existence makes you wonder how boring it is to be alive yet not be abstract. They say the majority of the population limit their transcendence because they choose to remain in the physical 3D world. Another is that it is because they are unaware of the outer dimensions, their eyes are closed together with their mind. If you close your eyes, at least allow your mind to go on freely to places where it takes you. Sometimes, the bigger world can be seen outside of reality. I remember seeing a documentary about how the universe is a fractal pattern that resembles the nerves of our brain, and they're saying that it all connects. They say that if you stay in the physical, then you're part of a repeating pattern that has been measured. The excitement begins outside of the obvious, and that means tapping into a dimension unbounded by something that has been calculated. One of the words that struck me was by the late Philippine senator, Miriam Defensor Santiago. She said something along the lines of, "Why do I choose to believe something unproven by science? (relating to her belief on God) It's good for my psychology. To hold onto something beyond myself. It keeps me sane." Or I guess this is just me being a Virgo...which leads me back to this: Your attraction to spirituality and metaphysical subjects is usually marked.
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